For _________

Our love had its pitfalls
as fools rush in
and although I tried to take this one step at a time
you threw yourself at me
and in me
while I didn't resist I took it as a sign
that perhaps you knew exactly what you wanted
since I knew what I wanted
and what I wanted was you

Then time became our enemy as goals and focus
took a back seat to what you said you wanted
marriage, a family
and silly me
I believed that I could be what you wanted me to be
instead of simply being...me

Now I sit here wondering if I should hold on and
try to beat my own record for running from failed relationships
or if I should just go while my dignity and self-esteem are intact
too bad it's not about more than that
then it would be easier to leave
there would be less time to grieve
and this would be just another goodbye poem

But I'm hoping for more
Hoping there's more in store
because I'm not just holding onto the man I think you are
I'm holding onto the man I believe you can become
the one
who loves his woman like his next breath depended upon it
the man who can be faithful
not because he has to
but because he wants to
(As if there was a difference)
a man who respects his woman
because that's what a real man does
a man who supports his woman
because two can stand stronger than one

These are the reasons why I stay
these are also the reasons why you may go
because maybe my hopes are too high
too pie in the sky
for a man who's willing to settle
for what has always been

Myla Jones--2005